When Payton was diagnosed with ws, everything we read spoke of how happy these individuals are. They have a cocktail party personality, are happy all the time, etc. At the time, we were still dealing with an extremely fussy child and it thrilled us to know in the near future our daughter would change from being nonstop fussy to being nonstop happy. I cringe now thinking about how silly Bob and I were to actually believe that. I thought I would start trying to prepare Payton for our move. She's known for hating change, so why not give her notice? Dumb mistake. I told her on Sunday and she has basically been an emotional wreck since.....for the exact opposite reason than what I expected. She wants to see her new house NOW. When I picked her up from Dawn's yesterday the first words out of her mouth was "You get boxes?". I know it's anxiety - in her own way she is nervous about it. And, honestly, Bob and I cannot believe how much this girl can OBSESS about things. It's almost easier not to tell her anything. She almost can't enjoy herself anywhere because she's too worried about what's coming up next. And I have no idea where that girl gets her energy. She can scream for hours about wanting to see her new house NOW and yet still be up til midnight. I'm now at the point of wanting to see how siblings cope with all of this. Right now, Koen just stares at her like "what the heck is your problem" but I know as he gets older he's going to get just as frustrated as Bob and I. I've seen and read what having a child with a disability can do to families and part of me feels like my head is spinning trying to make sure we're sticking together.
When Payton attended the learning center, the coordinator always said "Better to medicate the parents than medicate the child". I listened to this for a long time, but have since realized it's not the case. I don't think medicating Bob and I would make Payton feel better at all - she's miserable. The dev pediatrician recommended xanax or zoloft. If any of you have any experience with these medications with your child, let me know. (The medication he gave her to try first is addictive and can only be used once a month for a three day period - she needs something daily).
I've talked Bob into going to the alumni baseball game this weekend and he's going to take Koen with him. I'm hoping Koen and his gma Wanda can have some one-on-one time. Bob's going to head to West Plains Friday afternoon so he and his dad can build a computer together (Bob loves doing stuff like that) and then hopefully just relax and have a good time. My heart aches for Bob. For the past month he has been a completely different person - I think all the emotions, obsessions, stress from Payton have finally taken it's toll on him. I'm so glad he's willing to get away for the weekend.